Doubts & Paranoia

I have noticed that I have been using the phrase "I just get the vibe that..." a lot when in conversations (about other conversations) with Greg lately. It seems that I am in a phase that doesn't allow me to take what someone says to me at face value. I am constantly looking for their real intentions behind their words and what they are really thinking but not saying. I find that I am watching that person's actions and listening to their tone of voice and possibly pulling in some illegitimate feelings to the conversation. I am even doing this with Greg someone I know I can trust and would never do this to me. This is of course making me feel very doubtful of my roles and my relationships with people. I know this is all "in my head" because I go through these phases from time to time and the feelings will eventually fade and I am "normal" again. In the mean time....if you have a verse/passage that could help I would appreciate it!

Clothes, Clothes....Oh How I Would Love New Clothes!

Retailers do a great job of making me excited for the upcoming school year, but why does it matter to me? I don't go to school any more and I have no children that currently do. I think what I get excited about is all the new stuff that even "no-school" people end up thinking they have to have. The new clothes are the biggest and hardest thing to overcome for me. Especially with how I feel about my current wardrobe and how it "fits" my new mommy body. I try to be a good steward of the money God has allowed us but it always seems like there is some reason to go to the store and buy something. And do you want to know what the WORST show to watch is when you are feeling down about your clothes...TLC's What Not To Wear. I would love 5K to spend on new clothes!!! How fun would that be :)

One of those moments...

All women should be able to relate...
Don't you hate those moments when you realize that you have a stray piece of hair slip down your shirt only to securely end up hanging out in your bra. The perfect spot to tickle and annoy you. Of course, this always occurs at the most inconvenient times and places. For example, you notice you are a victim to the torturous hair while taking your daughter for a walk. You realize its presence when you come to a busy intersection that requires you to wait for the traffic to clear before continuing on. What to do? Pull open the top of your shirt and pull it out in front of all the traffic or wait for the clearing. Choices...choices....ok you need to pull that hair out now, no waiting for the "appropriate" time...it tickles!! Open the shirt, look down, grab the little...CRAP....it's a bug!

A Day Out...

Recently Greg, Lu, and I went to the Outdoor Discovery Center. This place is great and if you ever want to take a nice, relaxing walk without a lot of other people around you have to check it out. I think we picked one of the hottest days but we all managed quite well and had a great time. (Other than for that annoying fly that for a few hundred feet would NOT leave me alone!)

One of the cool things about the center is that they have an air conditioned little building that you can go into at the front that has a lot of taxidermy and small living "creatures" in tanks and cages. There is a screech owl that talks to you whenever you approach him (although I don't think he is always saying nice things). Lu enjoyed watching the painted turtle which turned out to be quite entertaining.

This and That

What's been going on? Well, I haven't been posting...but I think you have all realized that! Instead I have been working, going to doctor appointments, running errands, keeping up on the house, and most importantly spending more time with Olivia and Greg. I must say right now I feel very weird because Olivia is asleep and Greg is playing paintball for a bachelor party. It's so quiet here! I have taken this down time to get some stuff done for me, like painting my toenails, taking a hot bath, checking email. It's nice time to have but I honestly would trade it to have Greg hanging out with me. I am glad that he had the opportunity to play tonight. It is one of his favorite past times that he hasn't done in a very long time. Oh...what's that sound? The garage door! Yeah, Greg's home...I guess this concludes this blog! :) Be back the next time I have a spare moment...