Success, Sickness, and Other Thoughs...

I am happy to say that we have broke Olivia's swaddling requirement for sleep! We started the process last week Thursday night because I knew I didn't have to go to work again until the following Wednesday. This would then give me lots of time to sleep during the day to make up for the lack of sleep at night. The first few nights were definitely difficult. Up every 2 hours and such but she slowly began to sleep longer and longer...We are now back to our normal sleep schedule before we took the swaddle away. Yeah!!! She was starting to outgrow the swaddle since she started eating so much and I really didn't want to buy the next size up.

Olivia had her first non-well child visit to the doctor yesterday. She has had a runny nose for the past week and then Monday she started this really icky cough. Imagine barking cough with gasps for air in between coughs. Turns out she has croup. She is handling it very well and honestly she doesn't have a terrible case. It seems to actually be getting better already. Last night she slept with the humidifier on and I only heard her wake up coughing twice. Today she coughed a little in the morning but I haven't heard anything since. The doctor was funny though because she said she is only contagious when she coughs so she would be OK to go to daycare. What??? How do you figure...there are kids there??? Do you expect me to tape her mouth shut so she doesn't cough??? So regardless of the doctor's advice we have stayed home from work this week. We'll see how tonight goes and maybe we'll try going in tomorrow. That's still up in the air though because I don't want any other child to get sick and I want to make sure she is completely better (especially since I have to go to work on Monday to do a new employee orientation for them).

On a Jessica note....I find myself getting very frustrated lately. What's frustrating is that I am making myself this way for no good reason! There is irony. Essentially my problem is that I want to do so much! I want to be the crafty girl who is getting those pictures painted for her daughter's room, getting that massive pile of mending done, starting and finishing my sewing projects, putting on a garage sale, going blueberry/strawberry picking, going for daily walks, taking my daughter to neat places like the zoo, reading books, visiting with people, home improvement projects started/finished. But as the days go on I am realizing that not all of of this stuff is getting done. I am staying on top of the everyday stuff like laundry and dishes. Olivia and I have fun everyday but there is just part of me that wants more out of the day. Things like cost of fuel, distance to everything, and honestly lack of motivation some days are some of these things that are preventing me from getting everything accomplished. I know that I am doing a good job at what I am getting done. I think that it is just part of who I am; always wanting to do more. I think that is why I always got frustrated at nearly every place I have worked. I would start out with just a few responsibilities but then I would see things that could be done so I would do them resulting in me being given more responsibilities. I guess it isn't always a bad thing but sometimes I would really like to be okay with being lazy (just for a while)!